THE PAIN INSIDE

Thursday, August 26, 2010, 5:47 AM

The pain inside me, I just can't help it. No one knows, except Allah. I just can't describe how terrible the pain is. Orang lain xkan faham, sebab diorg x alami ape yang aku tgh alami. Susah aku nak cakap camner sakitnye rase sakit tu. Ape yg datang sume pelik-pelik, padahal sakit biasa tapi aku rase sakit. Sumernye dtg secare tibe-tibe, MACAM-MACAM. Aku x tahan hidup macam ni sebenarnye. Menghilangkan mood aku nak wat keje, nak study, nak ada tumpuan. SUSAH! Aku betul-betul dah macam... ugh.. macam nak givup? eh bukan2.. mcm.. macam nak ubah realiti~ kan lebih baik kalau seseorg itu dpt tahu bila ajalnya tiba~ Serius, I really want that kind of speciality. REALLY~

Aku tak faham dgn kehidupan ni. Tapi ape yang aku faham semua org ade peranan masing2 kat dlm dunia ni. Macam aku, aku x tahu kenape aku dilahirkan, tp yg aku tahu, aku ada 'tugas', ada hikmah kenapa aku wujud and sesungguhnya hikmah itu membawa kebaikan.

Sampai bila aku nak macam ni. Fikiran aku terlalu sempit untuk memikirkannya~ Aku redha.

Labels: My Life Story

☆★ ULZZANG ★☆

Monday, August 23, 2010, 12:58 AM

Haha. Just thinking of this fashion style kind, or more into MAKE UP style I mean. I ⓛⓞⓥⓔ the way they make up themselves. Ulzzang came from the word "best face", used in Korean language. They usually wear circle lens, smokey eyes make up, and different kind of special poses (chamwhore-ing themselves). They are CUTE! Not only female but MALE can also be ulzzang (mostly asians with korean looks). They can earn celebrity status even only through cyber world! There are many ulzzang wannabes post their pictures on website (including me -not) and some of them used photoshop to be fake which is in reality they look different. But me, I look different in pictures because I didn't wear spect, wear tons of make up and because of the camera angle factor ; CAMWHORE! Be beautiful in pictures are not wrong, it brought satisfaction to the camwhorer themselves. Sometimes I also edit my face by vanishing the pimples and sicko spots (ehem), cuz my face really problematic with spots and acne and my make up just can't be helped to cover it xD

Hey a muslim like me also can be ulzzang what ;D MALAYSIAN ULZZANG! bahaha. Naahh never. cuz I wear 'tudung' (those who didn't know the word can google it up LOL) I just like being myself with normal make up technique. But I also touch up my face with some ulzzang make up methods. So malay girl like me can follow their make up style instead of following their hair style / extension, girly outfit etc. It's fun, I just love MAKEOVER so much. Planning on buying circle lens later but my mom won't let me. But I'll beg her someday. FIGHTING! :O

Labels: Fashions, Make Up, Ulzzang

RELATION-SHEEP

Saturday, August 21, 2010, 1:34 AM

aku nak start tulis ni pun dah rase berdebar xD haha bodoh!
hmm... post ni aku nak jadi cam pompuan asli sikit.
p/s: PEREMPUAN ASLI >> MEMPUNYAI PERASAAN TERHADAP LELAKI lol xD ehem... ok2 serius. jap aku x tahu perlu ke aku tulis post ni? maluuu (>///>) tapi tebalkan muke. haha. but, is it normal? for a girl like me that doesn't have the the look, but still have 'the' feeling. ko paham ke x maksud aku ni? (=__=)

i know certain people found it irritating if someone who doesn't have the look falling in love (yes that including me) but, it's not good. don't think you are pretty enough to get the best man in the world. busuk hati lah org macam tu. but actually orang2 macam tu yg buat aku low confident sebenarnya. sbb tu kekadang aku x reti cakap dgn org because I always think in negative way towards them. i'm really bad in socializing. these questions always popped out in my mind whenever i talk to them "do i look okay to them?" or "did i annoyed them?" or "ape yang diorg tgh pikir ni.. mesti pikir yang buruk2 pasal aku." sumernye pasal rupa fizikal. sbb tu la kalo aku pakai mekup aku lagi konfiden. dlm kelas aku slalu rase takuuut~ x berani bersuara. TAK BERANI. kalau elun dgr mesti dia marah kot. dia tu konfiden tinggi betul, kekadang aku rase cam nak switch je dgn dia. haha aku x paham dia sgt. SORRY FAZLUN i used ur name here, but u somehow inspired me in the class, DARING GIRL :D

but yeah kalo aku jadi giler and mengarut2 maknanye aku tengah selesa dgn keadaan sekeliling aku. seriously. HAAAAAAAAAHAHA.

haha x jadi aku nak cakap pasal keperempuanan asli aku haha xDD lain kali lah. dah kemana2 otak nih. bye2.

p/s/s: "REDHA. JANGAN CEPAT PUTUS ASA. ALLAH TU MAHA ADIL. SETIAP APA YANG BERLAKU ADA HIKMAHNYA" i hold these words.

p/s/s/s: so many pssss xD i'm watching this video, she is super-beauty and sometimes i wanna be like this type of girl. oh anyway, she's promoting a contact lens, G&G Max Pure Pink circle lenses. GAHHH i wish i could wear one. but my mom doesn't let me (-__-)

Labels: My Life Story

HELLO KITTY BOX

Sunday, August 8, 2010, 8:03 AM

I dunno whether to buy the HELLO KITTY JEWELRY BOX from HOME DECO! And now the 50% price cut promotions for all stuff has been OFFICIALLY CLOSED right after this hour. Huwaaaaaaa I've missed it or I'll get it for RM20 only! It should be bought last week but after I seen the box, my mind got messed up, dunno whether it's a worth buying or not. Because the box is not so spacious and there is no

hook hanging on the top (like the pic showed at the left side). So it's not a perfect jewelry box. Too simple. And it kinda looks umm.. cheapy? And very light, easily broken. That's why I doubt about buying this stuff. Hmmm.. I think it's not that important. I can buy the high quality one. The price is the second matter, SATISFACTION should be prefered first. Ne?
p/s: planning to try online shipping method?

Labels: Favorite Things

SITUASI KELAS 7/8

Saturday, August 7, 2010, 3:39 AM

PHOTOGRAPHY

Wednesday, August 4, 2010, 4:06 AM

Labels: My Life Story