HOPING TOO MUCH

Wednesday, December 15, 2010, 6:12 PM

I've a cruel disease. It is called OVER HOPING. Yes, I hope too much. Though I already know the reality is different. My heart will always say "YES", though the fact says NO. I deny things you say.. because you've given me too much hopes before. From that day till now. I'm tired.. tired of thinking which one is reality and which one is fantasy. My hope is too strong to deny it. I know what will happen next... See? I already know about it. It is just me, who DENY, and hoping for my dreams to become reality. Though the true reality is, it would be different. Diff from the dreams I've had. I know you will dissapoint me. Tell me, when can I woke up from this dream I'm having?! ....It will last forever, isn't it? Does my disease have any cure?


Yes, I'm weird.


The more I hope, the more I'll be dissapointed.


How to stop reminiscing, I should find the 'solution' immediately.


Though I know won't find it.


Until you make that next move, then my hope will die.


It would hurt so much. But I'll be free. In pain.

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